"biarlah ku relakan segala walau hidup sebuah tanda tanya..."

Tapi ini tak bermakna aku mengaku kalah bila kurelakan segalanya.. Terlampau banyak dugaan yang menimpa hidupku dan orang2 di sekeliling. seakan, semua sedang menerima hukuman daripada allah kerana lalai dalam dunia yang penuh dengan dosa ini. hidup?life? many things just seem uncertain right now. recently, i just know that one of my close friend is having a disease and have to take medication for the rest of her life. wow, life seem so full of suprises right now. regarding my fam, things doesnt really get better yet.dono will its get better. or will its get worse. for now, i choose to ignore and not think any sad and depressing stuff. but still, i cant really do my fucking assignments. So many choices i need to make ths year. big one. sometimes i see things so simple. but, in time, its can be so complicated as things keep shiftings and doesnt work in the same old way. my life seem empty and restless. i cant do anything to help my family. as for education, eventhough, i fighting for a degree now. its still see so blur right now as i not sure am i capable in getting it. i hope i can for the sake of my family. for the sake of my parent. for their happiness. i want to see me graduating. but, since the situation is like this now. my dad wont be able seeing me go up to the stage and take my degree. its really heartbreaking.

stress

erghh... stress.. what else... since the due date is very close.. plus with other unrelevant pressure that i get.. life just seem so stressful right now. Just now got headache over thinking too much. i very afraid that i cant pull off everything together. But.. i noe i cant blew this one. i only have this chance. bugger!!!!!!! please please... let me pass this shits... i feel like exploding.. everything doesnt seem right... erghhh..