i feel like writing again today. Heeee.. what so special about today. hmm... nothing? i just wear my work t shirt and a plain jean skirt and also a very plain make up. i guess i'm not into dressing up today. but.. what the hell.. who cares right? as my tagline say, "when nothings matter anymore". its just suit me.. hahaha.. weird? up to anyone to judge. nothing really exciting happen today so far. just the normal routine of waking up, get ready to work, go through the jam, find parking, and walla, at work. nothing new nothing interesting nothing extraordinary. nowadays, nothing really can impress me anymore. writing this blog actually confuse me. as i'm not such a writer that can write witha good grammar and with interesting stories to share. i like to express it using pictures but for the mean time. i have to wait that seem like forever, yes!!! to get the new canon eos 550d. i really hope my wait is worth it. once i get it. i will be active back in photogrpahy. for now. i been force to stop because i don have the damn equipment.

sober

i do not know why i feel so moody today.. i don feel like smiling, don feel like talking, don feel like laughing and don feel like playing nice. hope nobody bugging me tremendously today.

reason why i feel moody?

1. perhaps because i havent get my camera yet and have to keep delaying it everytime. its frustrating. bloody freaking frustrating. i hate waiting and i guess this torchering me. WTF. *sigh*. hope i able to get it end of this month. amin to that.

2. is it because my two good mate have go back to perth?

hmm... its maybe one of the reason. is it? perhaps.. i do feel more sad this time. not my nature to just easily cry when my friends is going somewhere. but.. i do not know y, this time its feel strange.

3. fabulous is no more? fabulous?i don feel fabulous exist ne more. things are different now. nothing are the same anymore. its feel sadder this time because maybe i begin to accept that fabulous is no more, and i already stop to be the middle man or neutral to make everyone happy. Its time for me to put myself first. perhaps, this is one of the reason.

4. its monday.. and i getting one like everyone in this fucking world that have to wake up from sleep and go to work. perhaps.

5. i need to express my feeling and explore the world a little bit more with my piece of equipment that will allow me to do that. till time decide.

6. financialy tight due to comitment and financial plan that just begin.

7. perhaps because i wanted to watch a good movie. but not fucking get it yet. hope my baby laptop will be able to finish download the movies that i choose yesterday night. please please

8. perhaps.. because a fucking idiots take my tayar pump cap and now o have to buy one to replace that. what a fucking bastards. oh well, i live with the believe that karma do exist and what goes around come around. fucking idiots like that doesnt live well.

9. perhaps i feeling like this because of no reasonS?

10. or... last but not least... i just fucking dont know whats wrong... fucker... yah yah... keep cursing akmar... its good for u.. at least it can make u feel bit better.