Saying I LOVE U doesnt mean anything if the person that say it doesnt mean it.. love is not easy, but hate..is too damn easy...

HATE...LOVE... how ironic... when u love someone u love so much... but.. when u hate... u hate so much also... everything must be extreme in this HATELOVE thing... why don people just love but not hate? before u get married, u will love yr spouse so damn much until u willing to give yr life to her/him. However when u get married, when u fight and have misunderstanding, hatred developed as each other get annoyed of each other. and then.. there a divorce... hatred developed more and more there... why cant we just love and not hate?is it too hard to be done? but... as living in this world.. the hardest thing to do is to love somebody fully but to hate fully.. no problemo... Ironic?

I love u and will always do...

This few days... i miss the love that i once get b4... long lost love... yesterday,i even get a dream of meeting him. Do i really miss him? or its just a feeling that i get b4 i got my pms. Everytime i put the ring that he gave me into my finger, i dono, all the memories just coming back to me like its just happen yesterday. i know that he already got a new love in his life, and good for him. But, perhaps no girls like to know that their ex already have somebody else to replace them. its too heartbreaking to accept and knowing the truth. Eventhough i always trying to not believe whatever a guy say when we in relatioship, but... the truth is... i want to believe it, we want to believe it. Its cold hard truth. maybe, that the reason why girls always get cheated. however... its my sweet first love... if its not because of religion, we must be still together now. MAYBE. but.. i don blame the religion, coz, its just our fate. maybe there something good behind all this. I love him and still in love with him. Just seeing his picture make me feel like wanna run to him and hug him saying that i don care.. i just wanna be with u. I love u so much...Chriso.. i really wonder do u miss me also? do u still remember our love? do u ? When i see a man that look like u or do things like u always do... i always remember u... first love is so hard to forget... but at the same time, its too sweet to forget... i love u darling and will always love u even when i got a new love. Coz, u my first love and nothing can change that.

here i would like to announce that i pass my exam and hopefully wont have any problem to proceed to my last year of degree beginning next year.. I'm so very happy... happy because i dont let my parent down again and that are tht most important thing for me.. I really want to make them happy. i'm glad, eventhough there are so many bad thing happen, there are still a good thing happen also... i'm just bless... thanks to allah.

This few weeks i been quiet. Been busy for part time to earn extra income. and while searching i been scam by a horrible data entry company that requires us to pay 200 for security deposit. I guess allah want to teach me a lesson. thats y i been fool by believing the scam. ahhh... cant describe how me n my fren get so frustrated when we noe we been scam. gone our 200... But..i believe on karma, what goes around come around. they will definitely get what they deserve some day. So, let they have fun rite now. Eating and pay your children school fee with black money wont bring any good. I sound like cursing rite? but.. thats the truth.. karma do exist.

But.. thank god i pass my exam, so.. all the frustration been heal by it...

I just read a blog of almarhumah sara aziz. Her love in photography really moved me to get more serius in pursuing my dream to become a photographer. I want to be a profesional photographer. not because i want to earn money. But because my love of photography. When i take picture, its give me a satifaction that i cant describe... i just want to take more n more... i love it... catching people laughter,love, sadness and the beauty of allah create really make me feel so.....hmm... its really hard to describe. But, i noe what i want and love i love taking picture, i love computers. Nothing can chance that facts.