Every woman/Girl have their very own symptom before they having their period. Same with me. P
My symptoms are:
1. Crying over long lost love (that is the time i will miss my first love and hoping to have him beside me)
2. Feel Hungry all the time (i craving like a pregnant lady, god... save me)
3. Get mad very easily (everyone just seem so annoying...LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!)
4. My stomach feel bloated ( wardrobe malfunction, HELP!!!)
5. Get tired so fast
6. Sleep alots
7. Thirsty all the time
8. Feel depressed
Sunday, September 21, 2008
since i start writing back at this blog while listening to leona lewis with her incredible song 'BLEEDING LOVE'... I decided to write more n more everyday as much as i can. thougth this maybe a therapy for me. A mindmental therapy i call.
well... yesterday night, i fight with my mum again. I really hate to fight with her. But, i dono, when it come to family, i become so rebellious... well, that what my mum said also. i become so rebellious and i actually realize that... i got so much anger. i hate being like that. i really pity my mum to have a child like me. i noe she been through alot of thing in her life... and she don need to me to add on. but.. i dono why, in my family, i intend to speak out. intend to tell what i feel and disagree at. I will tell my mother if i don agree with her thinking... i hate when people judge and stereotype me to others. i am for what i am. i don want to change for anybody. i will change certain things for good. but, not the whole me.
but.. i noe... the 'ME' that i'm talking about is hard to be accept.
rebellious, hot temper, bold and hard to show her affection to people.
i always having problem with people due to misunderstanding.
my friends say i like to make assumptions. and that create problem to me.
hahaha... funny... all the time i try to take care my words and actions, that time also i actually make people misunderstand me.
how not to being hurt? how to not feel insult? how to not feel low?
thats the problem i having all this time.
when the time i should show my true feeling, i just keep quiet or react the opposite way eventhough i wanted to show other feeling. perghh... this is the time i so called ms.confuse.
when your friends give u something that mean alot to u, u suppose to cry and tell them how grateful u are rite? after all that they done to u? but instead of showing u grateful and cry, u hold back. showing the opposite thing. now, celebrating your next birthday with them will be... hmmm... i dono, guilty? feel like u don deserve it? yah... i don feel like i deserve to celebrate my birthday with them anymore, i noe i shudnt think like that. but.. that what i feel since that incident. i hold back my feeling at the wrong time. and now. the guilt is torchering me.
well... yesterday night, i fight with my mum again. I really hate to fight with her. But, i dono, when it come to family, i become so rebellious... well, that what my mum said also. i become so rebellious and i actually realize that... i got so much anger. i hate being like that. i really pity my mum to have a child like me. i noe she been through alot of thing in her life... and she don need to me to add on. but.. i dono why, in my family, i intend to speak out. intend to tell what i feel and disagree at. I will tell my mother if i don agree with her thinking... i hate when people judge and stereotype me to others. i am for what i am. i don want to change for anybody. i will change certain things for good. but, not the whole me.
but.. i noe... the 'ME' that i'm talking about is hard to be accept.
rebellious, hot temper, bold and hard to show her affection to people.
i always having problem with people due to misunderstanding.
my friends say i like to make assumptions. and that create problem to me.
hahaha... funny... all the time i try to take care my words and actions, that time also i actually make people misunderstand me.
how not to being hurt? how to not feel insult? how to not feel low?
thats the problem i having all this time.
when the time i should show my true feeling, i just keep quiet or react the opposite way eventhough i wanted to show other feeling. perghh... this is the time i so called ms.confuse.
when your friends give u something that mean alot to u, u suppose to cry and tell them how grateful u are rite? after all that they done to u? but instead of showing u grateful and cry, u hold back. showing the opposite thing. now, celebrating your next birthday with them will be... hmmm... i dono, guilty? feel like u don deserve it? yah... i don feel like i deserve to celebrate my birthday with them anymore, i noe i shudnt think like that. but.. that what i feel since that incident. i hold back my feeling at the wrong time. and now. the guilt is torchering me.
hah.. here am i again...
just started my long holiday since 5 september...
feel bored as hell.. and it making me depressed... very depressed... as i looking deeply at my life and see.... hmm... nothing... nothing special, nothing to proud of, nothing to do.
Well, if u consider a housework is a job, then i didnt do that either.. hehe... i am lazy, i noe...
right now if u all asking me what am i doing, well... my answer is...
" i'm watching tv, what else?"
and the reason why i writing this in blog is because i'm bored and i got nobody to talk to...
so here i am... talking crap while watching mtv. :p
how to unclocked my brain? yah... u all hear me... how to unclocked my brain?
its like there's something stuck in my brain that doesnt allow me to think more or stop me from being more creative... haha.. sound crappy.. but yah... thats how i feel. i want to unclocked my brain...
so how? should i take yoga class? or should i take aerobic class? or should i do something crazy?
hmm... so many question isnt it? i noe... TOTALLY... har...
my throat is hurting me now... lack of water i guess... its fasting month, with this kind of weather, for sure its easy to get sick...
my body? getting bigger i think... its not like i don want to do anything about it... its just coz me lazy.
lor.. u all must be think i'm such a lazy ass kan?
well...i think i am...
just started my long holiday since 5 september...
feel bored as hell.. and it making me depressed... very depressed... as i looking deeply at my life and see.... hmm... nothing... nothing special, nothing to proud of, nothing to do.
Well, if u consider a housework is a job, then i didnt do that either.. hehe... i am lazy, i noe...
right now if u all asking me what am i doing, well... my answer is...
" i'm watching tv, what else?"
and the reason why i writing this in blog is because i'm bored and i got nobody to talk to...
so here i am... talking crap while watching mtv. :p
how to unclocked my brain? yah... u all hear me... how to unclocked my brain?
its like there's something stuck in my brain that doesnt allow me to think more or stop me from being more creative... haha.. sound crappy.. but yah... thats how i feel. i want to unclocked my brain...
so how? should i take yoga class? or should i take aerobic class? or should i do something crazy?
hmm... so many question isnt it? i noe... TOTALLY... har...
my throat is hurting me now... lack of water i guess... its fasting month, with this kind of weather, for sure its easy to get sick...
my body? getting bigger i think... its not like i don want to do anything about it... its just coz me lazy.
lor.. u all must be think i'm such a lazy ass kan?
well...i think i am...
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