restless

erghhh!!! i feel so restless right now. cant seem to do anything...
i try to learn 3d max for my final project... but nothing seem to progress so far...
i feel really2 crappy right now... i so scared that i gonna screw up with my final project not to add that i'm not sure i choose a right lecturer to become my supervisor.. everything just feel so wrong right now...
i hate to say that sometimes i feel like i just so screwed!!!!!!! i feel so tensed and fuck up....
so many thing went wrong... not to say the friendship that i have for years really doesnt feel the same anymore... i hate it when things just turn to be fuck up!!! YEAH!!! the word for today is FUCKED UP!!!! i just feel like shouting till my lungs burst!!!!!! sometimes i also feel like saying to someone that fuck u!!!! just because u thought i'm ok its mean i'm ok..i do have other kind of thinking u fuck!!!! asshole!!! bitch!!!!! argh!! i just so wish i can say those kind of things...